Her Mind Recites…. Awakened

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She WAKES

I missed the ignorance of truth        



And avoidance of reality                                      

The delusional confidence in youth

 



I envied the versions of me back then

That walked with blind confidence                   


Composed of blissful foolishness

Deaf to the sounding of life

 

I had awoken to a mind and immediately

Yearned for earlier moments

As if my lies to myself were my truths

And I was glad

 

Luckily this was just a fleeting valley stride

That unknown to me was the long

Way I had chosen by deciding to remain

Could have been that I left no love to myself

And also no Time to know me,

But I dove deep in to the collective psychology

Of the way that it should be   done

In that while

Hectically feeling spaces and frantically spiralling

 I did a lot of nothing


Within I lacked the peace

And without I had no capacity to manage that

 Ideas invented in my resting mind were

Generational to my realities

 

I thought my thoughts

And spun my truths to myself

I floated about reciting the Mistry and miseries of life

Flailing with the winds of time

Waiting on a universal promise from a belief

That the world owed me something

 

This self-thought experiment at one point

Felt like a figment of nothingness and

Blind to the climb out the valley I imagined

As if it was only then that I wondered

What am I?

And for these experiences I remain eternally grateful

Knowing that

I Am!

So God created man in his own image,

In the image and likeness of God he created her

And so begins the intentional pronunciation of me….

Poem Originator: Sandra “Sandrinha” Khoza.

This Poem is a copyright of the originating author. Permission must be obtained before using or performing it.

A piece by a friend of mine.When she read it to me it was so beautiful, I wished I could record her and play it every time my mind gets restless. It was like music with beautiful melodies. For those who do not understand "poetise", the poem is about awakening to yourself and coming to self realisation. And yes, you should've listened in your English class lol

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